So it's about to be another year. Another birthday. Another celebration. Because EVERY birthday should be a celebration no matter the number. "Why?" you may ask...well, because there is always something to be learned, something to give thanks for, and the understanding that there is something more that Our Father has left for us to do. We aren't finished yet. We aren't finished giving Glory to His Name. To bringing maybe a piece of Heaven to earth. To touching just ONE MORE persons life.
I am so thankful for this year. Maybe the most difficult one yet. It started super rocky with more doctors visits and possibility of surgery. It then climaxed to the massive decision to resign from my job and follow my passion full-time. Whoa. For someone who is type-A and predicable, this was possibly one of the hardest decisions of my life. Stepping into the great unknown. Why? Because I heard the call to "just paint" and decided to choose to believe that what I believe is really real. Or more accurately WHO I believe in.
So here I am almost one year to my 29th birthday and all I can do is stand back in awe and thankfulness and in a WHOLE LOT of strength and breathe deep.
At the beginning of last year, I had the very helpful criticism of a very respected artist tell me my work didn't have a "style". You see, style is important in this community. Not only do I want my amazing collectors to recognize my work anywhere WITHOUT seeing the signature, but there is a deep sense of steadiness within myself as an artist to know THIS is my heart and soul. Poured out. Constant. I now have my style. And, oddly enough, it wasn't something I developed over the year because of practice and lessons. It was because, I believe, that I stepped out into my true calling. My attention was no longer divided among what I thought I should be doing and what I wanted to do. It was EXACTLY where I needed to be.
I also learned that you are ALWAYS stronger than you think you are...ALWAYS. I have said frequently throughout this year that this is possibly the biggest decision of my life...aside from the possibility of marriage one day :). This is the decision that took the most courage and strength and constant reliance on my Savior that the money will come through, that there are people who love my work, that I can be fully satisfied as a business owner and full-time artist. And, man, I have never been happier in my life. Amazing right? Oh, ye, of little faith.
I often wonder if I should have done this years ago. But then I stop and think what all the years have taught me. No. I did this at the PERFECT time. No sooner or later would have worked. There is beauty in the waiting even though it may not seem like that...perseverance builds character and character builds hope. And HOPE. This is what it is about. Hope in TODAY, TOMORROW and FOREVER.
I could go on for ever with lessons and joys and trials this year. But, I think I will stop. And leave you with this thought...Is there something in your life that you KNOW you were meant to do? Then why aren’t you doing it? :)
SPECIAL THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS SUPPORTED ME THIS YEAR AND ALWAYS. Without you I would have never been able to have the courage to do this. Whether you have purchased one (or many) of my paintings or supported me through encouragement of all kinds, THANK YOU. My life has been impacted because of YOU!